Fight Club

Someone mentioned fight club to me. The person that goes to all those support groups.

I am feeling that way only it's not so much fun.

Alanon, Alateen, AA, Counseling, Family Counselors, Family Week....

I never would have imagined this would be my life. I spent some time this morning thinking about the why, when my friend pointed out that why is an academic question that really didn't matter. It just is.

For me I think the why matter because if I can understand something I feel like I can relate to it and its' the first step in understanding things.

Right now I feel like I don't understand things. I guess it's not supposed to matter but I am having a hard time wraping my brain around that one...

I'm reading the shack, homework from my therapist, and it's so not a straight forward book. I must admitt I have no religous back ground so much of it confuses me. Maybe i'm just not ready.